My new found "love"

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My new VQ1015 <3 ... It's a keychain camera that takes lomo-style pictures! Totally my kind of thing!

A visit to the "reality"

Have you ever look out the window, hoping that all the things in front of you weren't true? Or perhaps hiding in your room, and day-dreaming about the life you really want, but you already know that it's quite impossible? Or even worst, you actually wished your dad to die soon, so all your trouble will vanish with his death?

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 I do, but not much of the dying part... and I still dream about my dream, whether or not is it going to come true for me.

The reason why I have all this thoughts, is that... I visited my "dad" at Meranti Home yesterday. I didn't go alone. I went with my mom. And if you ask me why I labelled him as "dad", and not just dad.. I just find it hard to call him that as he's never been much of a daddy to me. *deep breath*

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 If you will to ask me about what happened now, I won't be able to finish the whole story in this lil post. So bear with me, and let me spills out my thought slowly?

I'm actually finding it hard to write whatever I'm thinking out on the blog now, as I realized while growing up, I learned how to be stronger. But as I grew stronger, I stopped talking about it as compared to when I'm younger. As I stopped talking about it, I find it difficult to talk about it again. But I know I have to face up to the reality, and I swear I tried ways of facing this reality of mine. (I actually tried to write a short film on him and my thinking, but it's all polluted with thoughts of hatred and just my point of view. But I stopped, as I still couldn't face up to the fact... or let's say, 'cos I didn't want to find out about his point of view.)


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And so, I saw him again. (I actually paused for quite a while as I'm trying to figure out my thoughts...) It's a different kind of feeling seeing him this time. It used to be hatred. But now, I feel like I need to release myself from all this hatred as I am tired from hating. I'll be just happy if he stop all his nonsense and stay at the home like he is now. I am seriously happy at the way things are now in the house, and it will be really really great if it stays the same. All I want is a peaceful home. For I cherish what I have now, and not what has happened before.

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I still couldn't talk to him yet, but I'm just feeling happy that I don't hate him as much as before.
I thank him, for showing me the reality and cruelness of the world.
I thank him, for making me a much stronger person.
I thank him, for if wasn't for him and my mom, I won't be able to live this world.
And I will thank him, if he stop giving us trouble and stay at where he is supposed to be.


P/s: I was walking pass my mom with a plate of hams and egg, and she shifted her leg almost tripping me even tho I told her I'M WALKING PASS!! OMG!!! And I complaint and she replied, "Why would I want to trip you, if you fall I need to mop the floor lo!" I'm like so you care more about the oil spill from the food rather than ME falling... I'm f*cking disappointed.

Springclean 2010

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Had a war with the dust left over from 2009 in my room, and TADA!!! Lovee my new work desk!  
And also a new dining table for only $120+ per set. Nice enough for a small family! 

New dining table from Ikea!, originally uploaded by lomomilo.

  
But it's still a long way to go before I can totally turn the house into something niceeeeeeeeee :D I love making the house pretty!!

The Confession of a BROKE 'shopaholic'

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You're broke 'cos of the obvious reason, and together with your best friend, the two of you walked into the deadly trap set up by mall owners all over Orchard Road. You suddenly feel an adrenaline rush, but deep in your heart you hear a voice saying, "NO! YOU CAN'T SHOP ANYMORE! IF YOU DO, YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO GO ON A HOLIDAY!"

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And as you walked into your favorite shops like Leftfoot Entrepot, +20 Bulbs, woodwould and so on, you just keep mumbling to yourself, "Holiday, holiday, holiday... ..." till something cute just pop right in front of you and the urge of buying it keep rushing up your blood!

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 Thousands of 'excuses' start pouring in your mind, telling you how much you "WANT" the stuffs, and not "NEED" the stuffs. Like, "Ohhh, how nice it will look on my desk~ when I'm stressed I can just play with it or looking at it makes me feel all happy!" But the fact is, after a few months your attention will be directed to something new again, and the routine goes on and on. 

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Then, your best friend caught that danger look in your eyes, and walked up to you, slapping you out of your dream and drags you away from the devil. And you guys will be like debating about why you should buy, or why you shouldn't buy all those 101 stuffs that you liked on your way.  And it all summarized to you don't actually need those items unless you earn lots of money. Or you can just try to enter into contests and pray that you will win stuffs you want as you just can't afford them. 

So the moral of the story is, “Join The Cathay Facebook page (www.facebook.com/thecathay) to get updated with latest promos, events, contests & giveaways!”

Just let me win pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee! 

Moi baby~, originally uploaded by lomomilo.

Just... living my life

There's nothing much to blog about recently. Just living the normal life, meet up with two small "group" of friends, had marche twice, watched a movie "The Imaginarium of Doctor Panarssus" and feeling all disappointed after, had a pedicure which cost me a bomb just for the new year that I won't be celebrating, and followed my mom out to buy just her new clothes. 

Why I say "group" is because, they are not really a group. Haha, just one or two peeps from different part of my "friends' list". Anyway, it's nice as finally I have the time to meet up so it's all simple but good.

Anyway, am reading my new book even though my Roald Dahl's isn't done reading. "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern, the author of "PS, I love you". I really like the movie "PS, I love you", so without second thought I bought the book written by the same writer. I mean, how bad can it be if I liked her previous work? I'm only starting to read, and I think it's pretty good. I won't saying what is it about, so just go to the book store and check it out!

And while reading, some of you might be thinking, "Awww, how boring is your life..." But I really must say that I feel much happier right now. I had a chat with a friend about it, and I guess not many others will understand what I exactly meant. I might be earning lesser, 'cos I'm working much lesser too, but I'm happy to have time for me. You know, everyone needs time for themselves! And also time for family, and friends, and perhaps holiday. Just trying to cherish what I currently have, instead of asking for more and not being happy about not having more. It's kind of random so never mind, just wanna say I'm happier now. :D