Happy 25? Or just another 25?

It seems so unreal to me that I am officially 25 years old. It sounds old to me, but I'm sure there's many of you out there thinking that I still have a long way ahead of me. But well, what I'm trying to say here is that, I have a boring life already and I'm only just 25.

I feel weird writing out my thoughts now, as I'm trained for keeping weird thoughts out of people's way, from the moment I starts getting weird reactions from people each time I tried to pollute them with my weird-ish thinking. There could only be two logical possibilities, which is either 1) I do have weird thinking, or 2) They just can't be bothered with what I'm trying to fill them in with, 'cos life is miserable enough for them to absorb any more of my ranting.

The thing is, I think I found out the "secret" of being alive! Is that, there will never be any smooth sailing, and the sea will always be rocky and trying to drown you anytime. And to stay alive, you just have to keep fighting against it. And along the way, when your energy is down, you will start to recruit partner/friends so both of you won't feel as alone or fearful of what's going to hit you in the head. But the tricky thing is, everyone is so different that not every single one can match with one another. So, it's another rocky path (like the one I just trekked a while ago on Mount Batur, in which some might think it's easy 'cos they had overcome even worst path) where you will just have to keep your eyes closedopen to whoever that fills in the position of being your partnerfriend or whatever-so-you-called-it. And in all this 25 years I've been thinking what the hell am I living for? Why do things get fucked up again and again, and why do I have to fix things all the time, when is it even enough? It's always me who have to do all the dirty job. (And I bet people will start telling me that I am not alone at this point) And each time I just have to try to motivate myself, as it seems like there's hardly someone who could understand. So I am my own best friend? Trying to convince or fake myself into believing that things will be alright, and that the sea will be calm after each rocky storms. Am I pathetic or what? Or perhaps I'm just weird or over-reacting every time something just sparkles in the corrupted mind of mine.

I could be entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

And Bali I went!

Halloo!! I'm back!! And got darker, but all fresh from the holiday. Haven't had so much fun for quite a while, and it's really a good trip even tho the weather is freaking hot! Bali is like omg paradiseee not just for couple! Okay, I'm just going to let the photos do the talking! All photos are taken by my cute lil VQ1015 <3

Day 1: Outside Indra Homestay, where we stayed for our first 3 nights in Ubud.


Day 1: The view from this sucky restaurant we ate on the first day. It's like the worst buffet I ever had and it cost about 13 dollars each? Totally not worth it as I feel like I'm eating zhar cai peng.

Day 1: Some cafe with a rice paddy field! Can't remember the name, but it's near Monkey Forest in Ubud. We had fruit juices and some snack~ before the yummy dinner at Warung Enak!

Day 2: My first mountain climbing/trekking! I'm real slow and got over-took by almost everyone, but I still managed to reach the top in time for sunrise! :D The view is fab, but sunrise isn't the best 'cos of the clouds! But the experience is totally worth everything!

Day 3: It was a good day, as the clouds were dark but we didn't encounter any rain! The driver is good, and lunch was good, and we bought lots of fruits! Went to Mengwi, Lake Temple, Jatiliwih and last stop at Tanah Lot!




Day 3: Sunset wasn't fab, but guess it's still a good day. :D

Day 4 / 5: Seminyak! A day for chilling by the beach in the day, and chilling in Hardrock Cafe by night. Only bad is the toilet in our guesthouse isn't "okay" enough. 

We bought a kite and I guess it got the attention of others, and a guy actually came and started talking to me. He walked away after a while as I was just busy playing with my kite. haha

Day 5 / 6: Our last stop at Kuta! And finally staying in a room with air-con, good bed and toilet, and with a small pool! Kindly sponsored by holy grace as a birthday treat, and also seafood dinner at jimbaran! 

Food isn't the best I had but the combination is great, with dinner on the beach and a sunset view, it's a total bliss! And Grace is irritated by 2 middle-age looking guys who kept talking to us non-stop, and trying to get us our for party at night. Too bad they ain't cute at all. >:O!!

And I went home a happy girl! :D

Just... living my life

There's nothing much to blog about recently. Just living the normal life, meet up with two small "group" of friends, had marche twice, watched a movie "The Imaginarium of Doctor Panarssus" and feeling all disappointed after, had a pedicure which cost me a bomb just for the new year that I won't be celebrating, and followed my mom out to buy just her new clothes. 

Why I say "group" is because, they are not really a group. Haha, just one or two peeps from different part of my "friends' list". Anyway, it's nice as finally I have the time to meet up so it's all simple but good.

Anyway, am reading my new book even though my Roald Dahl's isn't done reading. "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern, the author of "PS, I love you". I really like the movie "PS, I love you", so without second thought I bought the book written by the same writer. I mean, how bad can it be if I liked her previous work? I'm only starting to read, and I think it's pretty good. I won't saying what is it about, so just go to the book store and check it out!

And while reading, some of you might be thinking, "Awww, how boring is your life..." But I really must say that I feel much happier right now. I had a chat with a friend about it, and I guess not many others will understand what I exactly meant. I might be earning lesser, 'cos I'm working much lesser too, but I'm happy to have time for me. You know, everyone needs time for themselves! And also time for family, and friends, and perhaps holiday. Just trying to cherish what I currently have, instead of asking for more and not being happy about not having more. It's kind of random so never mind, just wanna say I'm happier now. :D