I walk the line, Ukulele Cover

I was bored, and hence, recorded another song! Montage is of my niecey when she was less than a year old! *Pinches her cheek*

Falling Slowly, Ukulele cover

My 2nd song on ukulele. It's an OST from the movie, "Once". I watched it after hearing the song, and totally love it. The song isn't perfect as I recorded on the same day that I learn the song. Well, you know, lazy me.  

My "virgin" ukulele's song

Okay, so a few posts before I mentioned that I've bought a cheap ukulele. I practiced for a bit, and decided to record my virgin beginner song to pollute the world with my voice and the cheap ukulele's sound. Hope you guys didn't trash my blog away once you heard me. It wasn't easy to sing and play at the same time!

When in Rome?

I always love to visit Rome if I ever earn enough for a return flight and a one week stay. And perhaps, just like this movie, meet a cute guy and fall in love!



If I were Beth, I will definitely choose Josh Duhamel! And the reasons are so damn clear to everyone! Firstly, he's cute and handsome. That says a lot! Secondly, all of those who saw Beth plucking the magic coins in the fountain looks incredibly insane! I mean they freak Beth out more than creating chemistry! And lastly, the fact that Josh isn't poisoned by the magic of the "love fountain", that he's truly in love with Beth!

But well it's all about the fantasy love in a romance movie, and it's all different when it comes to reality. In reality, there isn't such thing called a magical fountain. And if there really is one somewhere out there, I believe there will be a huge chaos!

Unlike the movie, a real partner for life will be someone who truly understand each other, who could communicate well instead of using alienate languages, and not forgetting the similar interest/goal part so there will be something enjoyable to strive together! There's another two important points for myself, which is there shouldn't be any awkward silence and we should be able accept the flaws of our partner. Awkward silences are really... awkward... I had it once when I was much younger, and I could still remember how I didn't realized my hand is shaking as I hold on to the guy's arm. The silence is so over-whelming, and it should the the kind of comfortable silence, in which both of us didn't mind and in fact are enjoying it. As for the second point, it's just simply that nobody is perfect! Everyone must have some flaws, and if we can't accept that of our partner, then life will be hard!

So anyway, back to the movie. I won't mind watching it for the laughter and the fact that it's in Rome!

So, catch "When In Rome" Movie starting from 25th March 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

Happy 25? Or just another 25?

It seems so unreal to me that I am officially 25 years old. It sounds old to me, but I'm sure there's many of you out there thinking that I still have a long way ahead of me. But well, what I'm trying to say here is that, I have a boring life already and I'm only just 25.

I feel weird writing out my thoughts now, as I'm trained for keeping weird thoughts out of people's way, from the moment I starts getting weird reactions from people each time I tried to pollute them with my weird-ish thinking. There could only be two logical possibilities, which is either 1) I do have weird thinking, or 2) They just can't be bothered with what I'm trying to fill them in with, 'cos life is miserable enough for them to absorb any more of my ranting.

The thing is, I think I found out the "secret" of being alive! Is that, there will never be any smooth sailing, and the sea will always be rocky and trying to drown you anytime. And to stay alive, you just have to keep fighting against it. And along the way, when your energy is down, you will start to recruit partner/friends so both of you won't feel as alone or fearful of what's going to hit you in the head. But the tricky thing is, everyone is so different that not every single one can match with one another. So, it's another rocky path (like the one I just trekked a while ago on Mount Batur, in which some might think it's easy 'cos they had overcome even worst path) where you will just have to keep your eyes closedopen to whoever that fills in the position of being your partnerfriend or whatever-so-you-called-it. And in all this 25 years I've been thinking what the hell am I living for? Why do things get fucked up again and again, and why do I have to fix things all the time, when is it even enough? It's always me who have to do all the dirty job. (And I bet people will start telling me that I am not alone at this point) And each time I just have to try to motivate myself, as it seems like there's hardly someone who could understand. So I am my own best friend? Trying to convince or fake myself into believing that things will be alright, and that the sea will be calm after each rocky storms. Am I pathetic or what? Or perhaps I'm just weird or over-reacting every time something just sparkles in the corrupted mind of mine.

I could be entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

For the Ukulele's noobies

I was out with my family for dinner, when something caught my attention. It's an old fashion looking shop selling guitars, which have been there since I don't know when. Well, I've been wanting to get a cheap ukulele, and so I went to check it out, hoping that a guitar shop will sell some cheapo ukulele for the poor me. And guess what??? I bought a white painted ukulele for just $20! I know, it's so damn cheap, but I just want to try playing to see if I like it?



See? How cool is that! I have a white ukulele! So, anyway I know nuts about ukulele and I got the shop owner to help me tune it. But when I got home, I realized it's out of tune, so I went to look for my new best friend, Mr google! Yep, he's my nbf. So I found this really good website to help tuning your ukulele.

Then, come the next step of owning a ukulele. For noobs like me, I found this really good video online to help me start playing something decent. It's the kookaburra! It's really good, 'cos he's slow enough for you to figure out where's your chords, and it's a video, so you can pause and re-watch it anytime! But, after playing kookaburra, I feel that it's really not enough. I mean, I don't buy an ukulele just to play one song? So, I asked my nbf again, and found this even better website for noobiesbeginners!

I was kind of frustrated at first, as my ukulele kept going out of tune. I was thinking am I that bad? Or it's just that my cheap ukulele sucks? But anyway, my nbf told me that it's kinda normal for new ukulele/strings to go out of tune, as it's trying to adapt being strung by a noob like me. Hehe.

And Bali I went!

Halloo!! I'm back!! And got darker, but all fresh from the holiday. Haven't had so much fun for quite a while, and it's really a good trip even tho the weather is freaking hot! Bali is like omg paradiseee not just for couple! Okay, I'm just going to let the photos do the talking! All photos are taken by my cute lil VQ1015 <3

Day 1: Outside Indra Homestay, where we stayed for our first 3 nights in Ubud.


Day 1: The view from this sucky restaurant we ate on the first day. It's like the worst buffet I ever had and it cost about 13 dollars each? Totally not worth it as I feel like I'm eating zhar cai peng.

Day 1: Some cafe with a rice paddy field! Can't remember the name, but it's near Monkey Forest in Ubud. We had fruit juices and some snack~ before the yummy dinner at Warung Enak!

Day 2: My first mountain climbing/trekking! I'm real slow and got over-took by almost everyone, but I still managed to reach the top in time for sunrise! :D The view is fab, but sunrise isn't the best 'cos of the clouds! But the experience is totally worth everything!

Day 3: It was a good day, as the clouds were dark but we didn't encounter any rain! The driver is good, and lunch was good, and we bought lots of fruits! Went to Mengwi, Lake Temple, Jatiliwih and last stop at Tanah Lot!




Day 3: Sunset wasn't fab, but guess it's still a good day. :D

Day 4 / 5: Seminyak! A day for chilling by the beach in the day, and chilling in Hardrock Cafe by night. Only bad is the toilet in our guesthouse isn't "okay" enough. 

We bought a kite and I guess it got the attention of others, and a guy actually came and started talking to me. He walked away after a while as I was just busy playing with my kite. haha

Day 5 / 6: Our last stop at Kuta! And finally staying in a room with air-con, good bed and toilet, and with a small pool! Kindly sponsored by holy grace as a birthday treat, and also seafood dinner at jimbaran! 

Food isn't the best I had but the combination is great, with dinner on the beach and a sunset view, it's a total bliss! And Grace is irritated by 2 middle-age looking guys who kept talking to us non-stop, and trying to get us our for party at night. Too bad they ain't cute at all. >:O!!

And I went home a happy girl! :D

My new found "love"

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My new VQ1015 <3 ... It's a keychain camera that takes lomo-style pictures! Totally my kind of thing!

A visit to the "reality"

Have you ever look out the window, hoping that all the things in front of you weren't true? Or perhaps hiding in your room, and day-dreaming about the life you really want, but you already know that it's quite impossible? Or even worst, you actually wished your dad to die soon, so all your trouble will vanish with his death?

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 I do, but not much of the dying part... and I still dream about my dream, whether or not is it going to come true for me.

The reason why I have all this thoughts, is that... I visited my "dad" at Meranti Home yesterday. I didn't go alone. I went with my mom. And if you ask me why I labelled him as "dad", and not just dad.. I just find it hard to call him that as he's never been much of a daddy to me. *deep breath*

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 If you will to ask me about what happened now, I won't be able to finish the whole story in this lil post. So bear with me, and let me spills out my thought slowly?

I'm actually finding it hard to write whatever I'm thinking out on the blog now, as I realized while growing up, I learned how to be stronger. But as I grew stronger, I stopped talking about it as compared to when I'm younger. As I stopped talking about it, I find it difficult to talk about it again. But I know I have to face up to the reality, and I swear I tried ways of facing this reality of mine. (I actually tried to write a short film on him and my thinking, but it's all polluted with thoughts of hatred and just my point of view. But I stopped, as I still couldn't face up to the fact... or let's say, 'cos I didn't want to find out about his point of view.)


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And so, I saw him again. (I actually paused for quite a while as I'm trying to figure out my thoughts...) It's a different kind of feeling seeing him this time. It used to be hatred. But now, I feel like I need to release myself from all this hatred as I am tired from hating. I'll be just happy if he stop all his nonsense and stay at the home like he is now. I am seriously happy at the way things are now in the house, and it will be really really great if it stays the same. All I want is a peaceful home. For I cherish what I have now, and not what has happened before.

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I still couldn't talk to him yet, but I'm just feeling happy that I don't hate him as much as before.
I thank him, for showing me the reality and cruelness of the world.
I thank him, for making me a much stronger person.
I thank him, for if wasn't for him and my mom, I won't be able to live this world.
And I will thank him, if he stop giving us trouble and stay at where he is supposed to be.


P/s: I was walking pass my mom with a plate of hams and egg, and she shifted her leg almost tripping me even tho I told her I'M WALKING PASS!! OMG!!! And I complaint and she replied, "Why would I want to trip you, if you fall I need to mop the floor lo!" I'm like so you care more about the oil spill from the food rather than ME falling... I'm f*cking disappointed.

Springclean 2010

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Had a war with the dust left over from 2009 in my room, and TADA!!! Lovee my new work desk!  
And also a new dining table for only $120+ per set. Nice enough for a small family! 

New dining table from Ikea!, originally uploaded by lomomilo.

  
But it's still a long way to go before I can totally turn the house into something niceeeeeeeeee :D I love making the house pretty!!

Just... living my life

There's nothing much to blog about recently. Just living the normal life, meet up with two small "group" of friends, had marche twice, watched a movie "The Imaginarium of Doctor Panarssus" and feeling all disappointed after, had a pedicure which cost me a bomb just for the new year that I won't be celebrating, and followed my mom out to buy just her new clothes. 

Why I say "group" is because, they are not really a group. Haha, just one or two peeps from different part of my "friends' list". Anyway, it's nice as finally I have the time to meet up so it's all simple but good.

Anyway, am reading my new book even though my Roald Dahl's isn't done reading. "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern, the author of "PS, I love you". I really like the movie "PS, I love you", so without second thought I bought the book written by the same writer. I mean, how bad can it be if I liked her previous work? I'm only starting to read, and I think it's pretty good. I won't saying what is it about, so just go to the book store and check it out!

And while reading, some of you might be thinking, "Awww, how boring is your life..." But I really must say that I feel much happier right now. I had a chat with a friend about it, and I guess not many others will understand what I exactly meant. I might be earning lesser, 'cos I'm working much lesser too, but I'm happy to have time for me. You know, everyone needs time for themselves! And also time for family, and friends, and perhaps holiday. Just trying to cherish what I currently have, instead of asking for more and not being happy about not having more. It's kind of random so never mind, just wanna say I'm happier now. :D

It's not just a simple haircut

Salons nowadays are getting more and more "scary". I went out, intending to just trim my hair and no more. And when I got home, I actually got my hair coloured, trimmed and did colour treatment!

The story is, I walked into Kimage requesting for a simple trim to my hair, and the hair stylist started to comment about my hair colour that's turning "yellow".. and that new year is coming, blah blah blah it's not going to be looking nice. So I took the bait and decided to colour my hair! And so the process goes on, I don't have to describe as I bet everyone will know how it's like doing hair colouring. At the point where I'm waiting for my colour to settle after the chemical is applied on my hair, the hair stylist came to me and talked about how dry your hair will be without treatment, and give a short lesson and different kind of treatments blah blah blah.. I was kind of bored so I listened on. Then she goes on recommending me their salon shampoo and hair mask if I didn't want the treatment, and goes on blah blah blah talking about the shampoo and how the mask will make my hair colour last longer, that your hair will be soft and silky. So, I took the treatment choice (She only gave me two choices), and rejected the shampoo and hair mask. When the treatment is done, she started to compliment how soft and silky my hair is after treatment blah blah blah. And when I'm all done after 2 hours which I'm not supposed to be spending that long in that salon, she asked again if I really didn't want the shampoo and hair mask! I didn't took the last bait and paid for my oh-so-not-supposed-to-be-spending-that-much hair.

The thing is, the services are good. I'm happy with the treatment, the trim is simple just a lil expensive for that price I feel, the colour is normal, but I felt like I'm a fish waiting to be caught on their bait the moment I stepped in. I spent about $150 over when I only intended to spend $38 for that simple trim and wash.

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That hair stylist is a better sales person rather than a good hair stylist. How sad. The lesson learnt today? Never, ever go for a hair cut when you're broke.

"Simply paying the bills, and existing, isn’t sufficient."

Firstly, those who already know of this blog will be wondering, "Wow!! Your blog is alive again after XXX years!" Yessss, I know, I know. I started blogging since 2004 or earlier?

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Back then was more of a space for me to whine and complaint about school and stuffs. But now, I'm starting to blog again just because I feel like I need to do something about my life! I don't know where to start, I don't how to start, and I don't even know what to start with.. BUT!! I am so going to start writing it in a way to nag at myself.

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Have you guys heard of the quarter-life crisis? I didn't till I read it in CLEO magazine few months back, and I was kind of shocked after reading the whole article. Like OMG!! How true and how similar it's to what and how I'm feeling right now!

By the way if you do not know what's QLC, here's what I quoted from wilkiepedia.

"The quarterlife crisis is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the early twenties to the early thirties. The term is named by analogy with mid-life crisis.

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

* realizing that the pursuits of one's peers are useless
* confronting their own mortality
* watching time slowly take its toll on their parents, only to realize they are next
* insecurity regarding the fact that their actions are meaningless
* insecurity concerning ability to love themselves, let alone another person
* insecurity regarding present accomplishments
* re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
* lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy
* disappointment with one's job
* nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
* tendency to hold stronger opinions
* boredom with social interactions
* loss of closeness to high school and college friends
* financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
* loneliness, depression and suicide
* desire to have children
* a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you
* frustration with social skills"

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So, I was amazed after reading it and went on to google it further. (google's my new best friend btw) I was almost speechless and could literally feel my jaw lying on my desk, and could hear a voice in my head saying "I am so not alone.".

Therefore, by blogging, I'm hoping to find out what exactly complete me, and how I can actually jump out of this whole crisis thing. I'm not asking for anything perfect, but hopefully, a kind of balance?